I have nothing..

I have nothing important to me in my life. My life is meaningless…I don’t care how many people tell me that something special will happen in my life or that my life has purpose. No one knows me better than myself obviously and i’m saying my life in meaningless. I have nothing to look forward to, no motivation to do anything, no where to go to meet people, and no love for anyone.

I just want to meet that special someone already. I’ve never had a girlfriend before. I want to know how that feels. The feeling of being cared for and loved by someone that isn’t family. I honestly can’t see myself ever getting a girl friend ever. First of all I can’t ever bring myself to talk to ANYONE I don’t know… second, who would want to date a guy like me? I’m not going to school, i’m not good at anything, I just stay home all day playing video games or watching anime since my job doesn’t give me enough hours, I fail at everything I try, and I have the worst luck ever. You know what? The definition of Loser is:  ”One that fails consistently, especially a person with bad luck or poor skills” ….that’s me. I’m unlucky, I fail at everything I do because I have poor skills with everything I do. I suck at my own hobby (video games) That’s why I only play games that don’t take any skill whatsoever like turn based RPGs and Adventure games like Zelda.

I doubt anyone is even reading this but to those who are, I could of just saved you the trouble of reading all that and could of just said “I’m lonely and I suck”.

I think i’m going to spend the rest of the night staring at Facebook, in hopes that some one will have a long meaningful conversation with me so I won’t be so bored with my life.